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On Being a Bitch
Jan. 8th, 2007 09:13 pmI'm not normally a bitch, but I'm learning, slowly, as I grow as a person, that being a bitch can have it's place, on occasion.
It's not something I do with friends, just with people I don't like, and occasionally complete strangers. If they piss me off. Used to just hold everything in, it feels good to just get mad or snarky at someone sometimes. Or even just difficult, or rude. Never all at the same time - that would be bad form. And I like to savour it. I don't think I could manage to do all at the same time, I'm not that good at it. It doesn't come naturally, and also, if I'm going to do it, I do like to savour it.
There was the lady at the fabric store who was hogging the pattern book - "reserving" it by setting her purse on it while she walked away to look at patterns. That's just not how it works, especially on a sale day. I got snarky with her and made her uncomfortable, and drew everyone's attention.
Then there's the guy at work who want to be my special friend or something. I try to avoid eye contact, but he comes to sit beside me anyway. I give him a hard time about everything. I keep forgetting to demand to know why he singled me out. Today he came to sit across from me in the cafeteria, and I told him, "I think that's where my boyfriend's going to be sitting in a few minutes." He hesitated for a second, but he said, "Well, then, I'll just move over one seat." (It was even funnier when the boyfriend came by and sat exactly where I said he would.) I only said it to see what he'd do and try and make him uncomfortable enough to go away. He seemed innocent and naive untill I made it clear I had a boyfriend and he still wanted to be my friend. He said today that he noticed I was "quiet and alone" on the bus, and decided to see if he could get me to talk to him. What, does he think I have no friends?
It's not something I do with friends, just with people I don't like, and occasionally complete strangers. If they piss me off. Used to just hold everything in, it feels good to just get mad or snarky at someone sometimes. Or even just difficult, or rude. Never all at the same time - that would be bad form. And I like to savour it. I don't think I could manage to do all at the same time, I'm not that good at it. It doesn't come naturally, and also, if I'm going to do it, I do like to savour it.
There was the lady at the fabric store who was hogging the pattern book - "reserving" it by setting her purse on it while she walked away to look at patterns. That's just not how it works, especially on a sale day. I got snarky with her and made her uncomfortable, and drew everyone's attention.
Then there's the guy at work who want to be my special friend or something. I try to avoid eye contact, but he comes to sit beside me anyway. I give him a hard time about everything. I keep forgetting to demand to know why he singled me out. Today he came to sit across from me in the cafeteria, and I told him, "I think that's where my boyfriend's going to be sitting in a few minutes." He hesitated for a second, but he said, "Well, then, I'll just move over one seat." (It was even funnier when the boyfriend came by and sat exactly where I said he would.) I only said it to see what he'd do and try and make him uncomfortable enough to go away. He seemed innocent and naive untill I made it clear I had a boyfriend and he still wanted to be my friend. He said today that he noticed I was "quiet and alone" on the bus, and decided to see if he could get me to talk to him. What, does he think I have no friends?
